Today is October 1st!
Which not only marks the start of my favorite month but also starts my let’s get healthy hot in October challenge. My mission in the next 31 days is to get myself back on track to working out at least 4 times a week for an hour a day and getting at least 2 solid yoga workouts in a week.
I have been feeling miserable about my mental state and my body lately and I am hoping that getting myself back on track and feeling healthy and better about my body will help me feel more mentally prepared for everything.
I have noticed many times that the less I exercise the more negative I feel about everything else going on. So hopefully this will help me!!!
I am trying not to put a “number” goal on this because I don’t want it to be all about losing weight and much as I want it to be about feeling good.
What is everyone else goals for October?!
I have so been slacking on this. So I’m just going to finish all last weeks questions and then tomorrow start week 2!.
Day three: Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?
I do not count calories anymore. I used to when I first started trying to lose weight. But with my history of disordered eating I had to stop doing it because I was becoming SO crazy about the numbers. I do try and portion out the meals that I eat- Except for veggies those are a free for all to me,
Day four: Do you work out? How many times a week?
I do! lately I have been slacking. (when it is really hot out I just have no motivation to do ANYTHING beside read a book and get some sun!) When I go I try to go up to 4 times a week for around and hour to an hour and a half. I like to have it be 30/40 minutes of weight lifting and 30/40 minutes of cardio. And I try to add in some yoga or pilates to keep me flexible :)
Day five: Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?
Yes and no. I have been trying to shed the last 20 pounds for a really long time now. But I am really more motivated now because I have a wedding to attend in September with a lot of people that I have not seen in a very long time. So of course I would like to look to impress. :p
Day six: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?
I have been overweight. When I was in college I gained WAY more than the freshman 15. I hit my all time high of 189 pounds. And for someone that is 5’2 that is a terrible weight for me to be.
Day seven: Do your friends and family know you are trying to lose weight?
my friends do and some of my family does also. But we aren’t really the kind of people who talk about things like this. So I just keep things more to myself.
Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)
When I first starting losing weight it was mostly because I wanted to be as thin as possible. But now that I have gotten further into my weight loss journey I think that my main reason for continuing to lose weight is to just to feel comfortable in my own skin and with my body. For me I think it will come when I reach a certain number, but I also know that I want to be cut and defined. With that in mind I know the numbers may not change as much as I would like it to.
Weekly challenge: Pick one unhealthy food or habit you have (eg. Artificial sweetener, chocolate, eating after 8pm, skipping breakfast) and aim to go 7 days without eating/doing it.
I would have to say one of my most unhealthiest habit would be going to long without eating. I have been working really hard to break that habit and start eating every 3-4 hours. So with this challenge I am going to try to start doing that!!
Day one: How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be realistic)
I am 5’2 and currently weight 131/132 pounds (it varies by day). By the end of these next 60 days I would like to be a solid 120 pounds. (around 6ish pounds a month is hard but possible)
There are two things I love in the world. Traveling and Cupcakes. So this summer I want to try new cupcake places in the different places that I travel to. I also really am going to try and start baking some more. I know I always say this but I really love baking- even if I don’t eat them most of the time. I like how happy people around me get when that have something sweet just for the fun of having something sweet.
So today starts the 20 cupcake challenge. From now until the end of the summer. I want to have eaten or made a total of 20 different cupcakes.
Day 4- Bullet your whole day
Having pneumonia makes a person’s life really really lame. Since that has pretty much been my day since last thursday. Just insert way more sleep before since it was the start of this sick and not the end of it.
Day 5- Something you want to say to your Ex
- Dear ex boyfriend. Our relationship ended almost 6 years ago. But I still think about you and how shitty it ended. And I know it is all my fault. I acted like a fool because I was a fool. I was 18 and thought I knew everything and how everything needed to be. I thought you were my forever because that is what little girls who fall in love think. I didn’t care if it wasn’t what you wanted or needed in life- because it was what I wanted and needed at the time. I said SO many mean and hurtful things that if I could take back I would. I said them only because I wanted you to hurt as much as I was hurting. And because of those actions it cost me my best friend. I loved you more than I think I ever really expressed and you were the best first love a girl could ask for. I was a very lucky girl. You taught me that I could find love which was something I never thought was possible and I owe my new relationship and my ability to let myself fall in love to you. Because in order to truly appreciated what we have we have to know how much it can hurt to lose it. And thanks to you I do know that—- and I do mean that in the best possible way. And I know you will most likely NEVER see this post. But in case some day you do- want you to know that I still love you like a friend even if we hardly ever talk anymore. And I have missed having you as part of my life for the past 6 years. I’m glad we had the relationship we had, all the bad and the good because it taught me so much more than I ever could have imagined it would. As much as I hated that break up I can tell that it was for the best for the both of us. I let myself grow up so much more after that time to become a person I can finally say I am proud to be. And I don’t think I would have been able to grow as much if it wasn’t for you giving me a kick in the ass in the right direction.
so I am sorry for all the horrible things I said and did during the break up. But I’m glad you let me learn how horrible of a person I was becoming. And that I thank you for.